My Gospel

(A song from my heart...)

I have nothing in my Jesus.
I am nothing in my Jesus.
I search for nothing in my Jesus.
I yearn for nothing in my Jesus.

Jesus is all I want.
Jesus is all I need.
Jesus is my all.
Jesus is my everything.

Praise the Lord, O my Soul!

Reading Shalom's 'My Gospel' in English was very challenging. I had written something similar in English to share with my friends, but I had never completely re-written my Gospel in English. But wow, Shalom! Praise the Lord! He has done wonderous things through your whole-hearted confession of love and faith! I can't imagine how hard it must have been for you to share your Gospel in English with Pastor Tony and then to us through your blog, but God has done it all!! I love you and miss you so much!! (Eunice and Rebekah too^^)

I'd like to challenge everyone to write out their Gospel in English, as we have nothing else to boast (nope, not even our English can be our pride!) other than the Gospel which we have received through our Jesus Christ, Lord & Savior.

So everyone, here it is, Judy's Gospel, in English.

For the Glory of the Lord!

"My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast; I will sing and make music." Psalms 57:7

"But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect...yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me." 1 Corinthians 15:10

I was once a sinner lost and dead, but now I am free and alive in the love and grace of my good Lord, my Savior. He has found me and saved me - never to fear or to hate, never to cheat or be in despair. Praise the Lord for He is good! Truly God has done everything. Hallelujah! I give all the glory to the Lord!

I was born as the eldest into a family that long awaited the birth of their first child. Because of this, my early childhood days are filled with only good memories and joyful moments. It wasn't until we moved to Saipan when I was five, about a year after the birth of my sister, that I started to feel real pain and sadness within me.

Learning English was so hard. Whenever I returned to Korea to visit, my friends in Korea made fun of me for my dark skin. My friends on Saipan ignored me for my lack of fluency in English. My sister was ever so mean to me, and I couldn't do anything because of her weak health. Everywhere I went, I felt so small and powerless. I felt left out from the picture, only to be scolded at home for not being able to read in English and not being able to love my sister more.

My low self-esteem stayed ever so small under the strict rules of my parents and the heavy responsibility that lied on my tiny shoulders as the eldest daughter. I never felt pretty, smart, or sassy enough to satisfy anyone. Such feelings escalated to a point where I was considered a "loner" in seventh grade. Not having any friends greatly saddened me, and when the one opportunity for me to shine and make new friends came, I grasped it without any hesitation.

This is how and why I met my first boyfriend, and to him, I wanted to give my everything. The feelings I had for him felt so real that I didn't hesitate to give him even my body, and this is when lust took full control over my life.

Junior high was a dark time filled with friction between me and my parents, but nothing really mattered to me as long as I had my friends and boyfriends to love me. High school came, and the life I shared with my friends were filled with profanity, sexual immorality, drukenness, addiction to drugs, satan worship, hatred, and suicidal thoughts. I had no physical limits set with my boyfriends, and abortion was a choice I would have easily made. God's amazing grace protected me from committing the horrible sin of murder, but that didn't stop me from flaunting and exposing my body to every kind of lust and immoral acts of this world. I cheated, I was cheated on, I lied, I was lied to, I abused and I was abused. There was never peace in my family, friends or even within myself. In this brokenness of my soul, I went off to college in the States, seeking to fill my hunger for more love.

All this time I was perfectly hidden under the mask of a dedicated Christian girl, being loved and respected by those around me in church. Yet my filthy soul was revealed whenever I was alone, as I spent hours and days watching pornography online, smoking, drinking, cursing, and wanting more and more things of the world.

Then came a moment in my life when I felt the dire need to pray for all the unevangelized tribes in China. I hadn't realized it then, but now that I reflect upon this, that was the first calling I received from God to carry His heart into the world. From then on, God miraculously lifted me out of the mire to know Him and seek Him more. Other than that it was simply the amazing grace of our Father, I cannot explain the reason why I complied to the Lord guiding me back to Saipan and on mission trips to the Philippines and Mongolia.

Yet I still suffered from my pride, love of self, and never ending lust even from deep within the church. Just before I was about to fall apart, God opened wide the gates of Heaven, poured out even more grace upon my life and invited me to face the Gospel at the cross of Jesus. At first, I was too scared to let the truth about myself be revealed to the world. I felt as if everything would crumble and that I would die. But my death at the cross of Jesus is exactly what God had required of me, and I responded to the amazing love of my Father with the complete death of myself on the cross.

"I, Joo Hee Kim, have died on the cross with Jesus Christ two thousand years ago, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20

Amen!

The walk of faith that I'm able to march on as a freed child of God is truly the happiest moment of my life. I am now able to freely love as God has purposed for me from before Creation. I am no longer a deceiving imposter to my family. I am no longer the love-hungry, power-thirsty Joo Hee to my friends. I am no longer the lustful prostitute of this world.

As I was called to take the love of God to the ends of the earth, I now live the life worthy of the fullness of Christ, the life worthy of the glorious calling to be a faithful servant of the Lord until the day comes. Yes I fall and stumble at times, but everytime I am in distress, I look to my Lord as David once did. Though sometimes the pain is so bad that I feel like all my bones are being crushed (Psalms 51:8), I lift up my eyes with faith and I see the glorious Lord awaiting me with open arms, calling me and guiding me to be his holy bride.

The times are dark - ears will be shut, eyes will be blinded, souls will be condemned. Yet I will be still and know that You are God, putting all my hope in You, seeking for your love every moment, as a deer pants for water... May your love and truth always protect me, O God my Savior, my Refuge, my Strength! My heart leaps for joy to be in your presence, to dwell in your calling. Grant me clean hands and a pure heart to serve you until the end, oh Father, for it truly is better to be in your courts for a day than to be a thousands elsewhere. How beautiful your dwelling place is, oh Father!

"Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. Blessed is the man whose sin the Lord does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit." Psalms 32:1-2

"Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the Lord his God." Psalms 146:5

Hallelujah!
The Lord has done it all!
Now the sole purpose and reason that I live is only to prepare the way for the coming of my Lord Jesus Christ. I give all the praise and worship to our Father for saving my soul, making me whole, and giving me His Salvation so rich and so free! Father, here am I, send me!
We will soon witness the glorious return of our Lord!

Maranatha!

Skype & MSN

I just sent everyone an email today - please check it:)

I've been pretty much "offline" for a while with Skype & MSN, but I figured it'd be another great way for us to communicate with each other (in English, of course!). Just in case, I'll list my Skype and MSN ids on here as well:

Skype: jueykim
MSN: jooheekim@hotmail.com

I know we'll all have a GREAT weekend with Missionary Kim and the Gospel Revival; I just hope we get to squeeze in at least some studying in over the weekend^^; Love you all so much! The Lord has done, is doing, and will do truly amazing things through us!

To the Ends of the Earth with the Gospel!

The Gospel

Do you know the pure joy of simply awaiting for the true revival of the Gospel?

.................................................................................................... I do:)